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At Five Pillars Sober Living we provide a structured, safe, and supportive living environment for the recovering addict or alcoholic who is embarking on their new life in recovery, after primary rehab.

Robyn- Cape Town

Robyn inspirationGetting clean and sober not only saved my life, but gave me a life beyond my wildest dreams.

9 years ago, I was broken. I was an awful excuse for a human being, a walking corpse. I had lost my career, my self respect, my family, and was simply waiting to die. I had absolutely no hope. I was once an intelligent, determined person, and I believed that if I couldn’t think myself out of addiction, then nothing could help me.

As a last resort, my mother all but forced me into treatment. I didn’t want to go, I didn’t believe it could help me, and I was sure my boyfriend would overdose and die while I was gone. But I decided that I may as well give it a chance, considering I was there anyway.

After the drugs started wearing off and I started thinking more clearly, hope started to creep in. I was educated about my disease, and realized that I was a sick person, not a bad person. I reintroduced myself to my Higher Power, and grew to understand that the only way I would be able to stay clean and get my life back would be to never use or drink again. This seemed impossible, but the 12 step program I was introduced to lead me to meet people who had been clean for weeks, months, and years. If they could do it, surely I could to.

I wish I could say that I stayed clean ever since, but I refused to allow my Higher Power and the 12 steps to permeate every area of my life. As soon as I left primary treatment, I moved back in with my boyfriend, who was still using, and would subtly pressure me to use. After 7 months, I did. My life quickly disintegrated and within 3 weeks I was on the verge of losing my family and my job. It was then that I realized I needed to do whatever it takes to stay clean, or I would die. I packed my bags and moved into an environment where my recovery was prioritized. The man I walked away from Unfortunately lost his battle with the disease in March 2022.

I have been clean and sober since 19 July 2014. I am living a life beyond my wildest dreams. I have an exceptionally happy marriage, I’m the mom of 3 gorgeous children, I have a successful career and I like to think that I am a good wife, mother, sister, daughter and friend. Most surprisingly, I am at peace. I am no longer in a constant state of anxiety, trying to control everything or filled with self-loathing. I live a life filled with gratitude, every day.

My life is by no means easy, but it is beautiful. Recovery and my 12 step program has not only helped me to get and stay clean, but it has given me the tools I need to deal with life on life’s terms. I have learned to live in and appreciate the moment, instead of hating my past and dreading my future.

Life is beautiful, and I can say with confidence, that if I can do it, anybody can

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